Coming home to myself – Experiencing Osho

Freedom is our ultimate quest!

The unspoken urge for freedom, freedom of expression, freedom from unknown fears, from the status quo. I have been a seeker all my life.

These gave me anxiety, restlessness and a sense of unfulfilled life, I did not know how to be myself… it was difficult to live with the dichotomy of living a life where a part of me was unknown to me.

 I always wished to be ‘normal’ feel little less, not stand out, not being individualistic. Till I accept my individuality as a gift, till I gave myself grace to just accept who I was. It took a long time, and it has a story to it.

Here it goes 😊

I was always drawn towards Osho, even when I did not know anything about him.

I first saw a picture of the Osho Ashram in a tourism magazine. The Osho followers were whirling in the beautiful Osho Garden, wearing that dark maroon robe, they looked blissed out.

 I must have been 5 years old. I stopped at the picture and asked my mum “What is this place? I want to go”, Mum promised me to take there someday and then we got on with life

Throughout my growing up years, I kept encountering people and references of Osho’s thoughts, teachings in some form or other.

And then during the Yoga Teachers Training. I attended my first ever Dynamic Meditation session.

The experience was out of this world. Too beautiful to be described. I was dancing, whirling and shaking. I was doing everything that did not seem like me at all.

After that exhilarating one hour, I went up to the teacher and asked her more about the meditation, turned out, she was an Osho Sanyasin! I could see the freedom, the light in her eyes, something, I was seeking for so long.

At the moment, a decision was made, ‘I have to visit Osho’s house’ I said to myself.

Exactly 6 months after this event. I was in Pune.

The first meditation I attended was silent sitting in the Chaung Tzu Hall. This was Osho’s house earlier and this is where his ashes are kept now. The place has a different energy.

My Dear friend Dosta says, everything in the house represents the journey of human awareness. It starts from the garden, nature, the entrance where a Rolls Royce is parked on one side represents materialism and wealth.

The library gives a glimpse into human knowledge.

 The mirror room, self-reflection and introspection

And the main hall, a returning to nature, with a new kind of vision, a new kind of multidimensionality.

These rooms represent journey of human consciousness. The architecture is a metaphorical representation of the growth of human Awareness.”

The silence inside the hall was so loud, I couldn’t meditate, I just was overwhelmed with the feeling of gratitude to be able to visit the place.

After the meditation, as I was leaving, I read what was engraved on the mirror

OSHO

Never Born

Never Died

Only Visited this Planet Earth

Between Dec. 11, 1931 – Jan. 19, 1990

Under that mirror lay his ashes.

So that was my first ever meditation at Osho’s house and then next few days passed by, moving in presence and complete awareness.

I was so connected to my true nature. Isn’t that what we all want, coming back to ourselves?

Since then, if I feel my resolve to stay aware right between my desire and purpose is dwindling a bit, I find myself going back there.

I always find myself there, every single time.

Sometimes during Dynamic Meditation I find my soul dancing, other times I find my inner child smiling at me while I am dining with those strangers from different parts of the world, as if saying “Thank you for honoring me, thank you for seeing me “

I have much more to write but I am overwhelmed with gratitude. so maybe I will come back to it some other time.

PS : Please know that I am not saying Osho 's path is the only path. I don't practice any ritual, chant or any of that stuff. My path is also influenced by many other Philosophers, Scriptures, Deities, ways of living and being. I also take inspiration from people around me.

I will use an analogy here, the guides, teachers and philosophers we come across in our life are like the windscreen wipers. They sure help us see the road ahead when we are driving in rain. But our focus is on the road and not on the wipers, each one of us have our own windscreen wipers :)